Between fantasy and reality

This blogging habit has become more and more less interested for me. Well of course I love to write.. is just that the mood is not there to actually wanting to make a new post plus it's not that my life is amazing or something. I'm like writing my plain bored life here. Just like writing my diary.. except it's online and everyone can read it.

Sometimes I wonder, if life is like what the harvest moon character have, it will be pretty fun. Simple and easy. Everybody lives in harmony and no crimes, no trouble. I could sound a little silly here but I'm pretty amazed by how the creator of the game could come out with this sort of game that actually makes me fantasize abt that kind of life in the game. Is an ordinary farmer who has a house with a chicken barn and cow,sheep barn with a large piece of land to plant vegetables with good neighbourhood around and has a mountain nearby which has mines for u to dig on the minerals and great scenes of surrounding. Everyday is just about taking care of ur plants, animals and make friends with ppl.. get married eventually, have baby and go on with the farming life. I know.. a game is just a game. But i guess you can't even see this kind of life anywhere else other than playing this game cuz in the world today, ppl surrounded by tall buildings, everyday-improving technologies, living in big city... there's no way that this life would ever appear again. Even if you want this kind of life, it's so impossible. Like say, you want a great neighbourhood, there's no place on earth now is absolutely free from robbery, crimes and so on. Everywhere you go could be unsafe. *sigh* Wonder what happen to the times where everyone can get along and trust each other. Probably i'm saying something very selfish here, and I admit that I'm lucky to be where I am today and I'm eternally grateful to my parents for bringing me to this world... but I really wonder why one person could actually commit crime just like that. To me, it seems like some ppl see life as nothing. They could just take other's life away by slashing them, shooting them. Gosh.. do these ppl actually think about how their life came about? Don't they have parents? No one in this world were being born without parents... even an orphan.

Probably whatever I've said it's a little unusual but I just think that nowadays life seems too precious and fragile. Maybe next minute someone could just break into your house to rob you and worse, kill you. So I guess the purpose of living is to find the most meaningful thing that happen to you in ur life or maybe living is to look forward to the next second to see what's coming. *tsk tsk.. ppl reading this will actually think i'm talking like a philosopher.. well i'm just actually writing what I felt for so long*

I've been truly blessed to actually have so many dreams of mine came true. So in a way, I really want to help someone to fulfil her dreams. Still figuring out a way to do it though. Cuz I reallly understand the kind of desire to do certain things or wanted something but just couldn't reach it as soon as one wanted to. And being able to make someone else dream come true is another kind of joy. I wish I could really do this and bring a moment that one could never ever forget in his/her life. Haha.. Win.. if you are reading, just want you to know, I really understand ur desires. It's not a crime to being so crazy/addicted over a celebrity. Well.. to me.. this kind of crazy/addiction has become something called dedication. Dedication is something that is over craziness and addiction. I'm just like you.. I've been crazy over mike for years... I never really care what other thinks about my craziness or addiction, cuz I know clearly what I'm doing. Probably you'll think Mike Shinoda is different. He's more famous and blah blah.. actually the concept is pretty much the same. Both Keita and Mike involves in music industry and both of them love music, they just want to do their best to present what they could come out with to the fans. We, the music lovers get so attached to them is because they have something unique that we love. So win, it's never wrong to be crazy ;)

Woa.. Never really realised that I've written such a long entry. And most of the things i wrote is so "grandma-ish".. Haha.. kill time :P anyway.. i'm outta here. *peace*

Lazy post

Just a random post... click on the pic to view larger version :) *peace*

P.S. I realised there's some words i wrote wrongly. darn. gotta keep practising my chinese. can't let it be gone.

Can you feel my word... *random title* :P

Owh well.. it's midnight. Can't figure out any title to put and I was listening to Lee Hom's song, so put that title. Ha. Boring. *yawn* Supposely I have time to blog every single day... I just don't find the spirit to blog anymore. Nothing much to talk about anyway.. except.. World Cup. haha. So far I've only pay attention to the first match ONLY. Germany played a really good game though. Thank goodness history doesn't really repeat itself like last WC France was beaten by Senegal. Who would figure out that the world champion will loose. Ha. Anyway.. the Germany game was awesome.. it's like full of energy and every second I was looking forward to see the action.. compare to the England match which I didn't even bother to finish watching.. I didn't even watch more than 5 minutes. It's so damn boring. And sorry to England fans, to me they just won by luck for that match. It's so happened that the Paraguay guy gave away the goal by his header. Ha. For me, I think Germany's team like their strategic are pretty well planned. There were a few times that England can score some goals.. too bad.. their teamwork wasn't enough.

Anyway.. Sigh.. I just don't feel like going to work. But I want money too :P still thinking though. Work or not to work. Lol. I guess sometimes.. well.. most of the time.. I just imagine things that is never gonna happen in my head. I even dream about them at night. That's one of the bad things about me. I just couldn't help but think of nonsense when I've got nothing to do.. Like now.

The more I blog, the more I don't see a point of blogging anymore. I guess probably I'll just go back to the days where I write my diary. More private and personal. Everytime I blog is mostly about complaining about the college or course or maybe something else. It's not like my life is full of interesting stories to tell or whatsoever. Forgive me for the rudeness I'm having here. I'm just not in such a good mood now. And yeah.. I feel lonely. My circle of life is like getting smaller and smaller. I can't help but feeling so unwanted when I see most of my friends having their better half. It's like.. fine.. you can call that desperate again. And please.. nobody in this universe want to be lonely if one have a choice. Who doesn't like to be loved? I guess I really don't have fate with anyone I met in my life. Whatever. I'm out.

Weird week with weird dreams

This whole week was like a relief for me as everything for year 2 sem 1 ended. Phew. Din do much though except hanging around my house to relax and went out with my dear niece to watch Over The Hedge. Haha. pretty cool. I love those lil' porcupines. They're so adorable ^^ On that day itself I went to MPH to look around after the movie and guess what.. just as I was looking around, suddenly there were these two girls came and talk to me. And I was pretty shocked for a while cuz they've been asking me where I got my Itachi keychain that hangs around my bag. Then I told them I bought it from upstairs. Then they gave me their numbers and if i see anything like that keychain just contact them. That was one of the hell weird moment. Thank goodness both of them are not guys or else I'll freak out a lot. But then isn't it weird to just give ur number out like this? =/

Sigh. These few days were really nice to me since I didn't have any sleepless night like I did before. And gosh.. how I wish my dream was real. Lately I've been having weird celeb dreams. First, I dreamt about David Boreanaz... we were partying and suddenly he appears in my house and really spent a good time with me. Owh well.. He's hot in a way ^^ Then.. last night. Omg.. I dreamt about Coop?! You know the guy who plays cupid in Charmed? The one who helps Phoebe to find true love. Gosh. It's not like I'm into him or something. But I have to say he's kinda hot in a way :D Yeah. His name is Victor Webster. Gosh. Coop is my boyfriend? In my dream that is. Haha. You see.. all these weird dreams only prove one thing- I'm desperate. Desperate for love. I almost forgot the feeling of being love by someone. I guess I'll never be able to get those feelings again for quite some time. *sigh* Where is the love? =(

I'm out. Here's a pic of Victor Webster and David Boreanaz.

Victor Webster






David Boreanaz