Even more fucked up ..

I keep having bad feelings and seems like things haven't been going my way. Like my powerbook. I just don't know what's wrong with it. It's been acting really gay these few days. Blah...

Tmr's THE DAY. Vic: So what? I feel so bitch now. It's like I don't know what the heck I want. So screw up in everything. Don't have heart to do anything at all. So suck up =/

Mike Shinoda and the guys are in the town already. Again, So what? I can't do shits. No cars. No anything. I have a feeling all of this is due to one thing... PMS. There's only one word inside my head. F---! =/

this is yet again another pointless entry. pfft. I'm out.

Fucked up

Darn. I just hate this feeling. Tuesday is the day I'm gonna see FM perform. The m&g part, it's still like.. hopeless? blah.. I always wanted to make something like a banner or anything for the show.. But no matter how long I sit there and think, nothing came out. And I've been wasting a lot of time and paper and eventually all I can come out with is absolute NOTHING. I know is not such a big deal but I do wish to do something. Someone tell me what to do. I'm so stuck.

*sigh*

*sigh*

*sigh*

Nothing else to say =/

Get Me Gone..

gosh... i just don't understand why I get so tired easily whenever college starts. plus most of my classes end at 6 pm.. Darn.. I really hate that. Nowadays it rains a lot in the evening. And as usual the bus is damn stinky and now since I'm going home later, and everyone's rushing home after work and all.. the whole bus is damn crowded and there are times that i can't really find a space to stand still. blah. today's like worse.. after my friend drop me off at the bus stop, it started raining heavily and gosh no bus, no cab for like 15 mins. WTF? and I'm carrying my powerbook with me, and thank goodness my bag is waterproof or else the whole thing will be gone.

So far the classes are pretty interesting.But I have a feeling I'm gonna die badly cuz those subjects are damn hard. I don't just want a pass but I want to get an excellent grade. I'm really petrified when thinking of all that. But I guess I don't have a choice but to work extremely hard.

There are some new students in our class. All of them are guys. But.. they're not so friendly tho. Some act kinda cool. Ahh.. watever. Like I really have time to worry about that now. I would really try to be friendly but I just don't know how to start with them. Probably need some time huh.

Wheee... Mike is coming very soon!!! I'm excited!! *finger crossed to be able to meet him* A little nervous, a little scared, a little paranoia and watever... I'm such a chicken...

Anyway, gtg now.. that's it.Shoo.

Stuck In The Moment

It's funny how a kid told you that he wished to grow up fast cuz it sucks being a kid. And I was like.. r u kidding me? I wish I'm still a kid at some point of time esp during the times that bothers me a lot- decision making, problems solving, friendship or any problems. Cuz during my youngster time, I was really problem-free. *sigh* can't do anything but to keep it as memory though. Life goes on ain't it? :)

First day of year 2. Feels so shit. It's like... so unwillingly making a return. I just don't like that place =/ But where else can I go? Too late to step back though. Year 1 hadn't been all smooth. Just checked my average. I know I could do better but really I was so not serious on sem 2. So overall I got 70. And the result hasn't been modified. So i guess it'll be lower? *sigh*

I don't really dare to set a goal or anything cuz I know I'll be really enthusiastic at the beginning and in the end I'll be complaining and regretting for not being able to do what's on my to-do list =/ It has been like this ever since the first day I started to be educated. My culture :P

Darn.. I'm so friggin' excited for the FM show. I wonder if I could make it to the m&g. Gosh... *excited* Mike Mike Mike :D ahhh.. I need to go memorise all the lyrics. ahaha time is running out. I'll be skipping class next tuesday. OMG.

Anyway.. that's about it for now. Ta.

Love is in the air...NOT

First and foremost, Happy Birthday Mike!! supposely yesterday.. i was just too lazy to post :P I wish I could find a way to make the time goes slower cuz it's tooo fast! blah... valentine's is around the corner.. and i'm like.. a loser again this year. Not saying that i want a bf for the sake of having one but truthfully speaking, i miss having someone that will always be there for me. This kinda feeling even makes me feel irritated. It's like I must have done something to make God mad to get this sort of punishment. *sigh* Just kidding. I know I sounded pretty desperate.

Today's the last day of chinese new year and gosh, it's raining at this very moment. I'm lying on my bed with my precious powerbook. ahaha. my precious...

Another one week, i'll be starting year 2. I feel so yuck to even go back to that damn college =/ This is such a torture. Who cares. I'm so skipping class on 28 feb to stalk mike shinoda. muahahahaha. Somehow I don't have a good feeling about that day. I'm even worried that I couldn't make to the show itself. Worse come to worse, I'll crawl there :P

Pretty proud that Linkin Park and Jay-Z's Numb/Encore won Best Rap/Sung collaboration. Darn, Mike looks so... *laughs* But the performance was really unexpected. Paul McCartney? Wow. Seriously, he was kinda old though. I wish fort minor will get a grammy. ahaha. Dream on. But who knows, anything could happen :) And The Rising Tied is really good. I'm never a big fan a hip hop. But Mike really brings hip hop to a very different direction :)

Right, I'm a little too tired to report the whole Grammy show. So just check out the official website of the grammy. I'm out ^_^

Booo...

I was hoping to type more. But as the days gone by, I become really lazy to even on my PC somehow...*sigh*

Once again I realised time just flies a little too fast... I can't believe we're already in the second month of the year! WTF? Where has all the days gone? And OMG, I'm already 21? Face it vic, you're getting old. Seeing all my nieces and nephews growing up, i really have the feeling that I'm not a kid anymore. But... this is... too cruel... everything feels like yesterday especially when I flipped the photo album yesterday. I was like.. "What? This was 5/6 years ago? Wasn't it like last year?"

Gosh, God knows where will I be a few years from now. Could end up being a nothing. Of course I do hope to achieve something.

My mind is too mess up now. A lot of questions pop out from my head and too many flashbacks and I think I'm being really paranoia now =/ watever it is, gotta get some sleep and see what happens tmr. *cheers* ^_^