First of the longest night of my entire life...

I've never been so worried in my life before. And I've never had absolute sleepless night either. And last night was one of the night that I couldn't sleep at all. Mum got diarrhea and vomit, I guess she just ate the curry puff that is unclean. Probably my immune is strong enough to not give me any sickness... Actually it was not such a big deal to my mum, she said is just that she was awake the whole night going in and out of the toilet and that caused her to feel extremely exhausted.

At the beginning I thought b/c she just too tired so I left her sleeping almost the whole day and thinking that maybe she'll be awake in the evening or something. Then until about 8 at night, she's still like sleeping. I've called her a few times and she only asked for water and asked me not to disturb her, I kept insist of asking my cousin sister to come over and bring mum to see the doctor but my mum just refused. In the end I just couldn't really care much whether she wants or not and I just called my cousin sis to come over. My mum is as stubborn as ever!! Now I know where I inherit those stubbornness =/ both my dad and mum are damn stubborn.

I couldn't sleep at all. And my internet connection just fcked up which leaves me rolling around the bed, checking if my mum needs anything. The whole night I only have Lee Hom and Mike's voice accompany me through. At least i manage to get like 2-3 hours of sleep. I totally understand how one can get so worry now. I tried it. And I never like it. I even wish that I was the one who got sick not my mum. Seeing her like that really tears me apart. At least she's better now. But still I need to take her to the doctor and get some medicine to fasten her recovery. *yawn* my turn to get sleepy.

Crazy madness...

Okay.. so i'm really into lee hom recently.. I can't believe I'm actually crazy enough to buy 3 albums one shot.I'm going insane.. haha. supposely wanting to buy a new phone.. but then thinking of waiting for another few months for the apple phone(rumours said that it might be out on jan 2007) so fine.. i'll wait then.. then suddenly looking back at lee hom's old album and i realise i'll regret a lot if i don't collect it sooner cuz some of them are actually stop releasing. So I got Forever's first day, revolution and unbelievable today. Haha.. talking about insanity..

It's almost an end of week 4 already and one more week to go will be the raya break.. i'm looking forward to it and i'm not in a way... looking forward to relax and not looking forward to assignments X_X

Sometimes I wonder.. can my life be anymore boring than this? It's like everyday the same thing... nothing much.. come home.. sleep.. surf net.. watch tv... download.. do assignments.. it sounds not fun at all.. I can imagine my future life will be pretty boring too.. haha.. unless i can do something different than IT.. *sigh* I really envy how lee hom can enjoy what he's doing for music... he's just making music for the sake of loving music and not for anything else.. look at his family.. dad and big bro are doctors, younger brother studying medicine too.. only lee hom.. he's so into music that he could play almost anything in this world.. he's truly a genius in music.. the respect to him just keeps growing.. ^_^

What if...

*sigh* my mood swings here and there.. i myself can't even stand the current me. it's like for one second i would like to ignore everyone in the whole world and the next second i'll be thinking why am i so alone.. it always happen when it's the time of the month... gggrrr.. i really hate it.

it's gonna be the beginning of week 4. see how time flies? out of 12 weeks, 3 were gone. GONE! i wonder if suddenly a person disappear from this world without telling anyone, how sad would that be? Haha. those of u who's reading now, no worries.. i'm not having any of THAT thought in my head and i never will. Just wondering. that's all.

can't blame me right? that's why when u really love someone, tell him/her and appreciate every single minute that u have with him/her. Don't live a regret life. But somehow i think even if i like a guy now i won't be able to confess like i did before.. sometimes when u know how the outcome will be, u rather keep it within urself than making urself looking like an idiot. it's so natural that when u tell a person that u have a feeling which is more than friend with him/her, he/she will think that you're asking for a relationship. telling someone that you like him/her doesn't have to mean that he/she wants something from u. sometimes it can be just i-like-you only. *sigh*

Curse those indos.. ok.. maybe i shouldn't.. but every single year our country has to be "poisoned" by those hazardous haze = = when will it go away? can't they just stop burning for one damn year? and they always have to affect the neighbour country like us. how unlucky = = I wish the sky could just rain now and give us a clear sunny day tmr.. the haze is making everyone sick.

another stupid boring entry by the emotional me... gtg. remember, tell the ones that you love that you love them. don't wait til everything is too late. Mum, I love you... friends who are reading, I love you too... lee hom, i love you.. mike shinoda.. i love you too.. gabby... love u heaps...