If Only- Hoobastank

I thought it wasnt wrong
to hide from you the simple truth
I was scared
I felt it all along,
but it hurt to much for me to share

only I had been less blind
I'd have someone to hold on to
If only I could change your mind
If only I had known
If only I had have you

I finally understand
why things have happened
and how it all could go so wrong
will this pain ever end
cause I don't think I could carry on

If only I had been less blind
I'd have someone to hold on to
If only I could change your mind
If only I had known
If only I had have you

If only I had you (X2)

If only I had been less blind
I'd have someone to hold on to (I won't let go)
If only I could have spoke my mind
If only it were true
we could start brand new
I know I'd make it thourgh

If only I had you (X3)

So I pray.. I could breakaway...

What the hell? That one very last assignment still couldn't be done?! I know I'm in the wrong damn course. I'm really really sick of codes. Honestly from the very beginning itself I never really wanted to do coding or to say.. programming. Curse that stupid counsellor that got my friends and I cheated into this damn course. No wonder there's not many ppl studying this course =/ (it's a little too late ain't it?) Pfft. This entry is about complaints again.. yes.. ppl reading this will go.. gosh vic.. end that shit already! Sorry guys.. can't help.


Let me give you 10 reasons why I should quit this course and stay away from KDU:
1. KDU's IT facilities are not meant for IT student, instead, the build the new labs.. mainly for those other school ppl. Really, I'm not against other course student but somehow they just so happen to occupy the new labs and we, IT students have to end up in a freaking lousy room w/o the software we needed and the air cond DON'T WORK!

2. This course, sigh... from the day I went to counsellor and asked about this course, he told me that in this course, I'll be learning about Animation, Multimedia stuffs(they told my coursemate the same damn thing) but instead, we're very much learning what the computing studies students are learning. Pfft. Worse still, we even have a subject that should be learnt by the computing studies student but instead, they didn't learn it, we did. WTF ? o.O

3. Some lecturers in this course are so irresponsible.. owh well.. so far I only come across the only one. She's like the freaking pest. never dies. One of my subject this semester are screwed. Cuz she's so gonna fail me. And take this, I tried my best when she taught ABSOLUTELY NOTHING in class. BITCH!

4. The cafeteria in KDU just.. ah.. that's not quite important.. but then.. still...

5. Ever since I joined this course, I find myself having NO LIFE. Read my lips.. NO LIFE. No time for anything else but assignments.

6. 99% of my life now is full of depression. Isn't that a good enough reason for me to quit?

7. KDU's campus really.. honestly.. horrible. The environment just terrible for me to study. I really hate it.

8. I'm so stupid to actually come here to study. I don't know why.

9. The more I study, the more I realised I could be a jobless person in the future.

10. I'm really becoming a geek.


Right. I'm so sick of whatever is happening now and tmr..my last assignment is so screwed. *prays that I don't die so badly*
somebody, save me from this miserable life of mine.

There's gotta be more to life.. than this.. boring one i have

Sigh...I can't believe the semester is ending soon. Darn, i know this semester my result is gonna be terrible.. DIn pay much attention to a lot of things.. Din put enough effort.. Gosh.. this remaining week has got to be the toughest week of all. 2 exam papers and one extremely tough assignment to hand in. It's been days since I tried to do something about it. I've got some example codes but somehow there's some part.. not some.. most part of the programme is something i don't understand. crap. I don't want to be the person who plagiarise.. like copy the code, change the variable.. that's so wrong!

Anyway.. how else can my life be other than those stuff I mentioned above? I'm glad that my cousin actually left his Ixus to me.. so i keep taking photographs.. gosh i want to get a digital SLR. ^^ sigh.. why do i always want this and that? I want the intel iMac to replace my stupid PC. I want a digital SLR. I want a new phone which preferbly a flip phone. I want to buy lots and lots of anime. I want to buy the entire comic series of Naruto. I want.. Mike Shinoda. I want... haha.. i'm asking for too much.. gosh.. how can i forget? Above all, I want a freaking car! Haha.. dream on.. dream on..

Oh my.. look at the time.. time to sleep.. then tmr can work on the programme =/ right then.. renovation of my blog is gonna start after my sem finish... cuz it looks horrible.. in so many ways... Oyasumi(good nite in jap).. screw those motorcyclist.. get a life DUDES! i need to sleep! stop racing and go back to your home sweet home and sleep! pfft.

MTV really suck...

It's been really a while since my last entry. Been dead busy with all the assignments. Half dead now. = ='''

Anyway.. I was seriously shocked when i saw the winner's list for MTV Asia awards. It was really cold to see the winner for favorite breakthrough artist. OMFG. Simon Webbe? o.O How cold is that! This really proves one thing.. no matter how high you get in ur voting poll, in the end, one of the lowest one gets the awards or maybe I should say.. The artist who attends the award show won the award. WTF? That means our hard work meant nothing. This seriously just suck. I swear I'm never ever gonna trust MTV again. Originally I would love to report everything that happened in the MTV Asia Awards but now.. I don't want to. Just because... MTV really suck. What's more it's mtvasia. *sigh* Owh well.. can't deny the fact that Lee Hom looks stunning with that white suit that he wore. And gosh.. I think he's the only person I would love to look at for the entire show. And thank goodness I didn't watch the show or else i'll be trashing stuff towards my tv screen =/ yeah.. that's how violent I can be.

I just want to get over this semester. And it really suck too. Worse than anything in the world now. Having to submit one assignment today which I spent most of my weekend time on it. Then on wednesday have presentation for my worst subject and my most hated subject of all, FHCI. The documentation have to be submitted on monday. Then on tuesday another assignment which has 7 portfolio and I've only completed 2. After that, I've got to study for exam that's on 23 and 26. And one last assignment to submit on 25. WTF? What kind of life is this? God knows if I can pull through this one. I just wish I don't fail anything this semester and knowing that I won't be able to get good marks like last year for sure since one I didn't really put all my attention to studies, and two, the subjects are tougher than i thought.

18 more days before i can really relax. Sigh. I said this all the time well I guess I have to keep telling myself until I do this. I will start doing my assignments earlier next time no matter what. Ok. Let's say it again.. I will start doing my assignments earlier next time no matter what. One more time. I will start doing my assignments earlier next time no matter what. No enough, come again.. I will start doing my assignments earlier next time no matter what. Why are you stopping victoria? Again! I will start doing my assignments earlier next time no matter what. Alright. Those of you who's reading will think that I'm out of my mind. In fact. Yes. I am. Whatever. I really need to change the way I do my things. I need a plan before going on to the next sem. Being organised, waste less time on nonsense, be more hardworking and so on.Ah. let 's crap later. I need to rest for a while before I go totally wild. =/ Ta.