I just..

The tense is just getting stronger.. I'm getting more and more nervous... Shit. Can I ever get through all this just fine?

I guess feeling lonely is one of the feeling I hate the most. But recently I think I kinda starting to get use to it. Ever since the day I started to be educated, I've always been surrounded by lots of friends but funny enough as time goes by, ppl around me are getting less. This feeling keeps repeating ever since I stepped into KDU. To be frank I really dislike being alone. Probably once in a while when I'm not in the mood, that time I'll be preferring to be alone. But I guess most of the time I would like to have someone with me. I'm used to having my friends being around me. I'm scared to be alone. I don't like to be alone. Loneliness just suck. I'm used to be alone at home but I'm still trying to adapt the feeling of being alone when I'm out from home. Call me a not independent 21 yrs old or whatever I admit I rely on friends when it comes to moment like this. *sigh*

I just don't know what else can I say now.