I'm here with my puffy eyes...

wow.. i've never had such.. lonely birthday night before.. probably not lonely.. cuz i've got my tears celebrating for me. call me insane.. call me greedy.. call me mad... or whatever.. the whole damn night, i only received one SMS to wish me happy birthday and 5 friends greeted me on msn.. and my best friend called from Aus... and to sum it up.. it doesn't even reach 10 wishes.. I've never felt like this before... probably i've not been such a good friend that ppl would love to remember. I really don't know whatelse could I say.. tears just keep coming and i'm feeling sick already. I guess.. I'm just feeling absolute pathetic right now.. and i'm being lame.. but yeah.. that's what i'm feeling right at this moment.. I'm sad.. I'm sad that not many would love to remember the little me. Probably only being big size... Haha..

Happy Birthday to me myself and I... if only there's something to stop these tears.. and only Lee Hom's song singing to me.. and it has to be this song..


你只喜欢我微笑
你决定我的需要
我要怎么说才好
我不是为你制造
关心像是泥沼
拉住我往下掉
爱是漂亮口号
透过你的视角
你把我的喜好
随便删掉
变成你要的调调
你为我好我知道
我都知道
我的烦恼我的骄傲
你却不明了
怎样爱你才好
毕竟黑白需要自由奔跑
不能满足拥抱
can you feel my word
真实的我没办法伪造
can you take my hands
真诚你会感觉到
can you feel my word
真实的我没办法伪造
并不想讨好
你才觉得我重要
你只要我有礼貌
其他假装看不到
我要怎么说才好
当我的情绪低潮
关心像是泥沼
拉住我往下掉
爱是漂亮口号
透过你的视角
你把我的喜好
随便删掉
变成你要的调调
你为我好我知道
我都知道
我的烦恼我的骄傲
你却不明了
怎样爱你才好
毕竟黑白需要自由奔跑
rap:i keep on comin' back for more yo
日日夜夜我闭着双眼祈祷
为什么只有我的音乐能够让我依靠
我知道我的世界已经变的越来越小
跑不掉逃不了
怎么面带着微笑
怎么面对着你才好
怎么眼泪都在掉
怎么嘴嘟着好严肃
这不是哭着就好
怎么旋律在我脑袋
一直转一直绕
一直率一直撑着我再一次祷告
帮助我
can you feel my word
真实的我没办法伪造
can you take my hands
真诚你会感觉到
can you feel my word
真实的我没办法伪造
并不想讨好你才觉得我重要