I can never be pleased.. *sigh*

I always wish for this wish for that.. When am I ever gonna be satisfied with what I have? *sigh* Pretty disappointed that Brazil lost against France. Damn french :P Haha.. never thought France could make it to the semi-finals since last world cup they can't make it to the quarter.. lol. Don't quite remember.. the most memorable one was the first game vs senegal. They lost. haha. I guess most brazil fans must have been pretty heart broken. So am I. I really wished that the could be the champ again which makes them the 6th time champ if they win but.. too bad..

I'm working on the background of my blog though.. desperately want to change the ugly layout that i have. so lame. = = so damn kayu. i guess i'm pretty decided that i'm gonna stay home this summer break. One for trying to work out on those fats. Seriously i must do it this time so i can earn 10k next year. Hoho.And secondly, really have to pick up some software or thing to learn so that next semester I won't need to suffer that much. *sigh*

Seeing everyone having such a great 21st birthday... sigh i'm so jealous.. I don't want a blasting birthday... just hope that I could have some surprise though.. cuz I've never been surprised by anyone before.. lol... (ppl reading will go.. please.. stop being so damn fussy... it's already a surprise if ppl remember ur birthday) haha...seeing most of my friend have their 21st bday cake picture... so nice.. I've been waiting for something special to happen to me.. you know.. "special"... sigh... guys are so troublesm but it seems like girls can never live without them.. that's why.. it's really cool not to fall in love. once you've been loved before, you'll always miss the feeling of being in love when u're not. sigh... why am i always so desperate. am I alone in this? why is it so hard to actually find someone who loves me for me? ahaha.. i know one of the reason.. my ugly looking and having the plum body :(

Hmm.. let's see what I want again... (ppl reading: always know how to write what u want.. so lame..)
1. I want to lose the pounds that i've been carrying for years.. i realised that i've not been thin before X_X
2. I want to have a party that filled with everyone I know.. have a great time with them
3. I want a damn car.. don't care it's a kancil.. kelisa... whatever for now... i want something that can be driven..
4. I want a new iPod.. apparently my shuffle really doesn't satisfy me at all..
5. I want a new phone.. damn.. i'm so sick of my current phone.. it's that damn 3100...
6. I want a 21st birthday cake.. ahaha.. wtf.. i'm really lame...
7. I want to see Mike Shinoda again...
8. I want to travel overseas...
9. I want to be rich...
10. I want to be beautiful..
ahaha... i know i know.. stop it victoria.. you're just so lame.. your wish is getting weirder and more impossible... But truly, I really really want everyone that I know have a happy life and world peace and of course.. My mum to be happy all the time. She's the one that matters the most in my life. To those ppl who tend to kill urself before thinking about ur parents, what the f-ck is wrong with you? If ur bf/gf broke up with u, just get a new life. Killing urself is the biggest mistake you'll ever make in ur whole damn life. Dying isn't the way to solve a problem. Don't be the idiot to waste ur life like that. And besides.. you don't have the right to kill urself before asking ur parents permission cuz they are the ones who gave u ur life. No matter how suck ur life is, there's always a way out. There must be someone who could understand ur sorrow and pain. Don't make ur precious lil' life so damn fragile. *sigh* i'm sleepy.. off I go :D