Back to point one...

i really really hate these feelings.. last time going back to college/school is a good thing cuz i can meet my friends and have fun.. but now.. whenever i think of going back to THAT college, it gives me a chill. I even doubt about going back. Why? The course itself. I just couldn't see my future ever since i got into that place. If is just me alone I've got nothing to say, even my friends felt the same thing. I really wish someone would tell me what to do. I know I'm gonna regret going back and continue til the end. But what other choices do i have? Quit the damn course and find a job which i don't know what? Or go on with the silly course and learn nothing and say bye to those fees that i've paid? Come ON... KDU is just not a place to study. Lousy facilities, bad environment, lecturers are alright except some.. don't want to mention names but somehow some lecturer get to survive even they know NOTHING. Yes.. NOTHING!

Gosh i even feel like crying now.. Just feel like nightmare coming again.. "I've become so numb..." Chester's soul in that song fills my heart and lungs now.. blah.. this is the moment where LP's records come in handy.. listening to how chester screams.. "Take everything from the inside and throw it all away...." i wish i could do that.. Sigh.. moodless.. ta.