what is it with that dumb feeling..
seriously sometimes.. i just wish i don't have feelings.. probably heartless.. I am that kind of person who hates to hide the feelings within.. all my emotions written on my face so you can easily see if i'm annoyed, happy, sad or angry.. I've been asking myself.. what's the point of having a blog when i'm writing all these only... I just couldn't help it.. when I absolutely don't know who should I tell all these to and feeling so pathetic.. blogging is something i feel good... Owh well.. everyone can read about my entry.. it's the same as telling someone how i feel.. haha.. lame.. i know... who would bother to sit here and read everything anyway...
Don't mind me.. mood swings again =( sigh i'm such a terrible person.. always feel moody...i hate to hide my emotions.. i hate to hide my feelings.. just like how i used to like these 2 guys.. i actually told them how i felt.. but honestly i wasn't asking for any relationship when i told them.. i was just trying to let them know how i felt within that's all.. but they could just came and said no.. I didn't even ask for anything.. *sigh* my dear God brother (you know who you are) told me he sucked at relationship.. come on dude.. if you said that you sucked, then what am i? I've been trying so damn hard not to think of anything to do with relationship.. Yes, I'm happy that i'm single.. but why am I always being bothered by all these feelings? that's what I hate about myself... if only i didn't fall in love before.. my life would be more perfect.. if only i get to know more ppl.. my life would be amazing.. really? I don't know.. whatever... i have to hide hide hide all the weird feelings that i have.. just when i decided not to fall in love again.. love is calling my name.. why is it calling me when there's no outcome on it? why is it always have to be me who's carrying a torch? did i do something really wrong last time? *sigh* I don't ever want that kind of feeling again... it hurts.. was it so hard to be loved?
sigh.. whatever.. i'm outta here..
Don't mind me.. mood swings again =( sigh i'm such a terrible person.. always feel moody...i hate to hide my emotions.. i hate to hide my feelings.. just like how i used to like these 2 guys.. i actually told them how i felt.. but honestly i wasn't asking for any relationship when i told them.. i was just trying to let them know how i felt within that's all.. but they could just came and said no.. I didn't even ask for anything.. *sigh* my dear God brother (you know who you are) told me he sucked at relationship.. come on dude.. if you said that you sucked, then what am i? I've been trying so damn hard not to think of anything to do with relationship.. Yes, I'm happy that i'm single.. but why am I always being bothered by all these feelings? that's what I hate about myself... if only i didn't fall in love before.. my life would be more perfect.. if only i get to know more ppl.. my life would be amazing.. really? I don't know.. whatever... i have to hide hide hide all the weird feelings that i have.. just when i decided not to fall in love again.. love is calling my name.. why is it calling me when there's no outcome on it? why is it always have to be me who's carrying a torch? did i do something really wrong last time? *sigh* I don't ever want that kind of feeling again... it hurts.. was it so hard to be loved?
sigh.. whatever.. i'm outta here..
posted by Victoria at 10:16 PM
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