Me...

Lol.. sometimes I don't find myself having the mood to post but when i do have the mood, i'll post regularly :P anyway.. last night shahira sent me some clips of that she took of the frog they dissected. Honestly for a minute I feel like puking. Last time I do have the "ambition" to become a doctor. But somehow, that ambition has long gone. That's the reason why I can't be a biologist/doctor/surgeon or anything related to dissect. It's not that I'm afraid of blood is just that the more I grow up the more I feel like it's pretty disgusting. Ok. Sue Me. That's my problem. I guess ever since I step out of the life of a science student, the point of view that I have has become really different.

*sigh* I wonder how am I suppose to boost up my energy and really focus on my stuff. I find it pretty hard for me to concentrate this semester and I wonder why. No no. Not because of Mike. I know I'm madly in love with him but instead of making me lose my concentration, whenever I think of him, his spirit of dedication makes me feel like I need to work harder. There's so many things I want to complete and learn but this college seriously has been making my self esteem gone really low. I don't have confident in what I'm doing anymore and worse still for some time, I don't even understand what I'm doing. I really don't want to f-up in my life in the future. I need a good job. I need to earn money. I need to take care of my family.

Right. the first step, stop blogging in library when I'm suppose to be doing my work. Ta.