If only...

*sigh*. I wish I don't have to start my blog with that word. But really, this week hasn't been so good for me. The whole assignment issue has been such a tragedy. Would love to explain it further but now.. I'm just here to make a quick post. I'm having exam tmr. But I've not finish study yet. My head is like almost burst. I just don't know what else to do. I guess 2006 doesn't start well for me. So many issues I have to deal with later on. So little time to make big decisions. As a matter of fact, I'm sick of KDU and might consider to withdraw before year 2 starts. The more I go on, the more I felt like my future is not guaranteed. Even if I want to switch course/ college, there's so many things I need to care about. Fees, location and all that.

If only I'm capable to work on a good job now. I wouldn't have been in this kind of shitty situation. I would somehow really love to know what will I become in the future. Probably end up being a jobless freak huh? *sigh* I really don't want to disappoint my mum. I want to achieve something in my life. But how? Everyone seems to have choose their right path. While me, I'm like so lost. I've always know what I wanted. But somehow it seems like KDU can never provide me what I want with all the lousy lecturers they have.

This whole thing actually bring down my mood on the Fort Minor show. I just wish the day will come soon. But then I need to settle up my credit card thing so I can meet Mike Shinoda eventually. Alright. I guess that's about it for now. Nite.