Why is monday always blue? =(
This morning I was so reluctant to get up cuz classes start again today :( It seems like the one week break isn't long enough for me. Especially when I did NOTHING productive. And I knew it, once classes start, all the stress will be visiting me again. And I kept complain non stop. I really feel that I'm such a terrible person at times. Only know how to complain. I went crazy when I saw Joshua's powerbook and Bobby's iBook on the table together. *sigh* I'll be annoying ppl around me until I got it =(
Alright. Classes start today. And I thought I'm the only one being so moody... I was wrong. Surprisingly everybody is making fuss about the not so long holiday. Haha. This is how greedy we are. And when the holiday is too long, we make noise too =P I begin to feel really hopeless towards myself. Result, friends, everything.It seems like nothing is really going the way that I want them to.
Let me talk about my study first. Intro to Entertainment System or IIES, I started to hate this subject basically b/c I've learnt absolutely NOTHING from it. At least for subject like Information System Analysis, I know what I'm doing although I suck at that subject. The thing about IIES is that from day 1 until now, all I know at the end of the day I have to submit my personal assignment which is a simple arcade game which worth 40 marks and a group assignment before I get my ass off for the Xmas holiday and that's the assignment that kills. Cuz the requirement seems like we need to come out with an excited, advance game. And for God sake, the lecturer doesn't know a SINGLE thing about game. She doesn't know any classic game and all. Guess what. She's TEACHING me. I really find this whole subject is a big joke. Probably ppl in UNN (the Uni that partners with KDU) getting a really good lab session and they only introduce IIES in KDU this year. I mean come on, if they really want us to learn something, they SHOULD freaking train the lecturer first before choosing her to be our lecturer. I mean seriously the more I attend this class, the more I feel ridiculous. Yes, I love games, I would love to create games but until now I didn't learn anything. She just ask us to download the demo version of the software and photocopied the notes for us and that's it. She didn't even go through it. And in every single class, she expects us to show her some "design".. that's what she always said. We are all so helpless. We're like picking up the software on our own and we don't even know what to do. I really got fed up with this subject. I rather have programming 2 although is pretty tough. Cuz at least I know some programming. Unlike IIES, now all I know is at the end of the day I have to submit assignments and have to earn that 100 marks by MYSELF and the help of my friends in the group assignments. ISH. I'll flung this shit for sure.
Will there be any changes soon in my life? I would really love to know. Cuz I'm starting to get sick of the one I'm living in now. I know what I'm going through now is just nothing compare to what's coming to me in the future. But I can't help to speak out what's inside my mind. I like to whine a lot lately. I don't know why. Plus PMS. My mood is like completely terrible. I can't even smile at all. Where's the old me? As I said before, I'm not as happy as I was before. And 2005 is not a very good year for me in fact it could be one of the worst year of my life. I'm not sure though. Nowadays I tend to care less about everything around me. I don't really know how to have fun, make myself happy anymore. *sigh*
I'm outta here.
Alright. Classes start today. And I thought I'm the only one being so moody... I was wrong. Surprisingly everybody is making fuss about the not so long holiday. Haha. This is how greedy we are. And when the holiday is too long, we make noise too =P I begin to feel really hopeless towards myself. Result, friends, everything.It seems like nothing is really going the way that I want them to.
Let me talk about my study first. Intro to Entertainment System or IIES, I started to hate this subject basically b/c I've learnt absolutely NOTHING from it. At least for subject like Information System Analysis, I know what I'm doing although I suck at that subject. The thing about IIES is that from day 1 until now, all I know at the end of the day I have to submit my personal assignment which is a simple arcade game which worth 40 marks and a group assignment before I get my ass off for the Xmas holiday and that's the assignment that kills. Cuz the requirement seems like we need to come out with an excited, advance game. And for God sake, the lecturer doesn't know a SINGLE thing about game. She doesn't know any classic game and all. Guess what. She's TEACHING me. I really find this whole subject is a big joke. Probably ppl in UNN (the Uni that partners with KDU) getting a really good lab session and they only introduce IIES in KDU this year. I mean come on, if they really want us to learn something, they SHOULD freaking train the lecturer first before choosing her to be our lecturer. I mean seriously the more I attend this class, the more I feel ridiculous. Yes, I love games, I would love to create games but until now I didn't learn anything. She just ask us to download the demo version of the software and photocopied the notes for us and that's it. She didn't even go through it. And in every single class, she expects us to show her some "design".. that's what she always said. We are all so helpless. We're like picking up the software on our own and we don't even know what to do. I really got fed up with this subject. I rather have programming 2 although is pretty tough. Cuz at least I know some programming. Unlike IIES, now all I know is at the end of the day I have to submit assignments and have to earn that 100 marks by MYSELF and the help of my friends in the group assignments. ISH. I'll flung this shit for sure.
Will there be any changes soon in my life? I would really love to know. Cuz I'm starting to get sick of the one I'm living in now. I know what I'm going through now is just nothing compare to what's coming to me in the future. But I can't help to speak out what's inside my mind. I like to whine a lot lately. I don't know why. Plus PMS. My mood is like completely terrible. I can't even smile at all. Where's the old me? As I said before, I'm not as happy as I was before. And 2005 is not a very good year for me in fact it could be one of the worst year of my life. I'm not sure though. Nowadays I tend to care less about everything around me. I don't really know how to have fun, make myself happy anymore. *sigh*
I'm outta here.
posted by Victoria at 4:30 PM
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